The JoiLotus Garden: D.I.V.A. in rediscovery defined

Sunday, May 4, 2014

D.I.V.A. in rediscovery defined

"Grief does not change you, Hazel. It reveals you.” ~ John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

The Mom +Wife +Work = Superwoman formula is well celebrated and I worshipped in its temple. In fact, I was its high priestess, demonstrated by my faithful execution of prayers and passed judgments on those weaker vessels whom under the daily pressure of the American Dream cowered and waved their tiny white handkerchiefs. In my arrogance I juggled it all damn it and looked great doing it until I met the ultimate spirit crusher. That formidable bitch in the red bottom stilettos from the deepest circle of Hades.

Grief.

She snatched the hard won "S" from my chest then strut off laughing maniacally. And I watched in slow motion disbelief as my well Bedazzled badge of invincibility shattered to pieces at my flawlessly pedicured feet.

Now we've all heard the stories of our sisters who "crack up" and forsaking hearth and hubby, kids and car pools, puppies and play dates fly off and set up camp at the foot of an active volcano, live in a rain forest tree house, or drive into the Grand Canyon ala Thelma and Louise. Within a six months period, my mother's cancer battle, the sudden deaths in rapid succession of the great aunt who raised me, my best friend since junior high, and my beloved kitty cat companion of 16 years, caused classic adrenal system overload to set in at full force. And my initial response? Why I did what any self-respecting "head diva in charge" would do, of course. I "zombied out", unsheathed my sword and soldiered on. I mean, Mother Earth may have stalled on her axis had I abandoned my post.

Yes, I'd heard the stories and even witnessed a few firsthand. Still I adopted the mantra of the all too familiar famous last words, "Not me." However, on the morning I discovered I was unable to get out of bed the dream state into which my ego had lulled me ended. All seemed lost and the only way back to the Light was through the Darkness. There I stood at the D.I.V.A. crossroads. I had been unplugged and cast into the deep. It was there the journey of my Divine Intervention to Victorious Awakenings was to begin.

Are you at a major crossroads in your life? Have the dreams created by the illusions of your ego been shattered?